Confused~

I just attended a birthday party at Weng Harng's house. What so weird is this is actually not harng's birthday but is his brother's birthday, and i got invited too! Haha..dun care la, just treat it as a gathering la since i have been long time didn't meet with all my buddies already. But it was fun and thanks for harng's serve ya..^^

We chatted a lot there and so do the future plan. Haih..seem that everyone has cleared with their plan but how about me? I am not sure, i got a plan but don't know whether will it be the way i will follow at last. Damn it..i am fully regret actually because i didn't study well during the whole form 5 year, so form 6 for me is quite tough since my basic is so weak. But what to do?? I have no other choices, once time passed already, you will never get it back. So i promised and i swear, i must do my best start from now!

Once you got a bad result and you are poor, this will be a problem for you to further study. It is truth and i am facing this problem right now. I know i must continue with my study since my study mood still very strong with me. But i do sure that the percentage for me to enter local university without spending money is low. Second, let say if i choose to study private, i afraid that i need to retake a foundation course. I wish i wont go back to foundation life, i want to continue with my degree course!!

So..what i must do now is working hard and earn money to study. I am not sure when i will resign the job, maybe on June, September or December. I can't make any desicion now since i still have to wait for the goverment letter. But i will look for a day to go to the Utar and ask in details about the course, fee and also the enroll date. If they accept me to go straight for the degree course, i think i will enroll on January of 2011 and hopefully i can get it. This is the plan which i can study straight to degree course and earn money along this 7 months from now until end of the year. One more thing i am sure is i can't apply the loan for my degree course. So the money i earn now will be using on the first semester of course and i will work harder to get loan on the second semester and onward. ~JiaYi Gambateh~

Recently i am trying to improve my general knowledge. I want to step near to this world. Sometimes i really don't understand why am i improving from now?? It should be started early right? Haih..i have already wasted a lot of time, i hope i can chase back the time i have lost. If i got another chances again, i sure will do my best, won't let myself regret anymore. But for now, i know i cant, so i should be optimist! As i realized where did i do wrong, i must re-correct it!

God~i know i am wrong, i wish i could get another chances from you. I swear...i will do the best!!
Hope i can get what i desired~

My Recent Life~

I had been long time dint update my blog already and the reason will always be busying.
Recently i am busying with my work.
I got a work last month and probably with work until end of may if i am not mistaken.
God..i truthly hope i can go back to my study life..I love studying!!
I am currently working as a admin clerk actually but i don't know why do i need to do all supervisor's stuff..confused~
But anyway, i think i have already adapted in such a situation where i need to sun under the hot sun hot everyday.
I tell myself, just treat it as a experience and must pass through all this challenging.
I am actually quite believe a quote * God promise us a better life, but He doesn't say it gonna be easy *..!!
Time by time, i know i can be a mature and positive thinker.
No one can look down at me, i will let you guys know 'JiaYi always Boleh'..!
For now, i always keep my faith for everything...I must do the best! I don't want to make myself regret at future!

But how is my home life?
What i can say is i am getting along with happiness.
Don't you guys feel it..once you gone out work already, you can really get the meaning of home.
* Home Sweet Home *..home is the best place for me to rest, i can feel the caring from everyone at home and i love this feeling.
Since the day i start working, i can communicate well with my parents and i don't quarrel with them anymore..muacks..happy^^

How is my love journey?
I believe that love do not come easily, so once it has already come, we must appreciate the moment always.
I know love journey sometimes will face with hitch, but if you love them, you won't let them go easily.
Just as me..i love my dear and i am sure he loves me too.
I trust him always that already enough, don't try to think of others.
Love is a simple feeling with you can't really describe it..it is abstract but sweet.
I am going to China soon at 15th of October..!
I am so so so excited which cant describe from words..
I hope to see my dear soon and i miss him always!
Truthly hope we will have our wonderful and sweet moment there~ I love you!

Photo Gallery~

Genting Trip~22/2/2010 & 23/2/2010

Feeling lost

Guys..sorry for being disappear for a long time.
This is because i am busying like hell recently.
Bunch of stuff happened once together and are waiting me to settle it down.
For just a one week time, happy and sad things come toward me together.
What should i feel glad is i have been to genting with my dear and my family and of cos i have also been to sabah with my classmates too.
Sad to say that my dear has gone back to beijing at 26/2/2010 where i cant send him to airport just because i went to sabah at 24/2/2010.
It was a very sad thing for me since i have to leave my dear earlier and i couldnt see him again in a long time after i come back from sabah.
You guys wont know how much tears i have dropped in the waiting room of airport, inside the flight and reached at tune hotel.
I miss my dear so much which it wont be reduced but increased time by time.
Anyway, i hope my dear can attempt back to his life soon and hope everything can go well to him..i love you~muacks!
Secondly, my stpm result already released on 25l2l2010 where it was the second day for my sabah trip.
I dont have much thing can say with my result because it was damn sucks man...
I sad and i cried but what i want to tell myself is i have already tried the best and i shouldnt get any regretion.
So, what i can do is just accept and do the best again next time.
But actually i dont really sleep well and i dont have appetite to eat also.
I am annoying now for the application to enter local university.
Although i have applied and sent it, but i scare i cant get what i desired.
I have totally lost my direction now which dont know what else can do.
I dont hope to come out work so early because i am actually a girl that like to study.
God..please do give me some luck because as everybody know, i was born in a poor family which i cant get any financial support from my parents.
Since i was young, i need to work to gain extra pocket money.
So, me and all of my sibling are definitely consider an independent children if compare with other children la..lolx..!
Hope everyone can bless me..thanks~
Well, let change the topic and come to sabah trip.
This was the second time i gone to sabah but with different people.
To conclude, this sabah trip is consider enjoy and memorable for me.
I learned fishing and snorkeling there.
I am here want to take this opportunity thanks to Rachel who taught me snorkel..heart you ya..!!
Then, i have also noticed how good are my friend in this trip.
In short, sabah is a unforgettable trip and i hope to go there again.
You guys dont even think sabah is a ulu state but actually there have many beautiful island and rainforest.
If you guys like natural, you guys sure like sabah..hehe^^

Happy Chinese New Year 2010

Time is flying and we are going to say goodbye to Chinese New Year 2010 soon.
Today is the days 8 of new year and i am passing my new year with simple and happy!
Haha..nothing much can describe the celebration for this year because we just have a simple celebration like usual.
But actually to be honest, as every members in family can stay together, i am already satisfy with it.
This year the first day of new year is crashing the valentine day and i am glad because i got to celebrate new year and valentine day together with my dear and my lovely family.
Maybe for others couple, they hope to celebrate valentine by 'two people world', but for me, it is a good tried also to celebrate with family sekali gus!
Haha..and at last i found that i was quite enjoying..lolx..!!
Along this new year, i have gone to many relatives house to 'bai nian'.
And i did get a lot angpau.
But one thing i feel very weird is why chinese new year is all about gambling?
Lolx..i saw most of people gambling in this new year and so do i..haha..but my luck quite good, because i won some, not that much la..hehe!
Second, my mom's birthday sat on days 5 of new year and all of us held a simple and memorable celebration for her which at my 'dai bak' house..!!
A lot of meals have prepared and eaten by us..really happy and i am sure my mom did feel it..!!
Mama..Happy Birthday to you ya..I love you~

hehe~this is the birthday cake we bought together for our lovely mama!

my lovely papa and mama..muacks~



Me and my sweet dear~muacks..love you forever!

This is the first card that i made for my dear as valentine's present..hope you like it..my dear~muacks~ HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!


Guys..I am here wishing you all have a prosperous Chinese New Year. Happy throughout the whole tiger year ya! Haha..Huat ah!!

9/2/2010

Hello..guys~Today i am going to share two things here!
Haha..the very first good news is my house has got a new leather sofa..lolx..
Omg..nice and beautiful and we bought it purposely for this chinese new year~woohoo
Secondly..my new kakak has come from Cambodia.
Yah~this is a very very good news for me and i am glad, i don't need to wake up so early for those heavy house work lo..wahahaha~cheers
Lolx..my new kakak is now 22 year old and came from Cambodia.
The very first impression for us is good and she likes to smile..haha..!
But what so annoyed us is she doesn't speak malay and weak in english too.
Haiz..it will be very difficult for us to communicate since we hope to talk much to her and get closer to her.
Never mind la..haha..because i have a mission, i want to teach her chinese..yahoo~
I believe that she is a fast learner!
Hope all the good things can come one follow by another..haha..!
A new tiger year, will it be a very good year for all of us?
Just bless, wait and see..lolx..!
~bye~

Broga Hill~

7/2/2010
Today was a very windy day and i woke up in the early of the morning at 5am. Haha..to be honest, this was the first time for me to wake up so early after i graduated from secondary school. Well, i woke up so early today was because i went to climbing with my dear, my brother and two of my dear's friends. Thanks hulk (my dear's friend) who sent us to Broga. Lolx..after well prepared with water and torchlight, we started to climb. Omg..it was so dark because the sun haven't yet come out to meet with us but i found that a lot of people have started to climb. Haha..seems that most of the Malaysian have got a very healthier life style. Huh~not bad not bad..!! Hehe..lets back to the topic. Since i less with exercise along the year 2009, i found that it was quite difficult for me to climb. But to complete the mission, i know i must be tough. Nothing in this world come easy, so to success, we must be tough to overcome all the hardship just as LOVE and LIFE. I used to be a st. john member in school and now i wanted to get back my fit fit body. I must believe to myself..i can do it..i can see the bright and wonderful journey right after the hardship~ JiaYi~Gambateh!! Yeah..finally i got to reach the summit by about one hour time. It was a good starting and i hope to challenge it again by a shorter time! Well..what i thought was really success and i felt glad once i saw the sunrise and view with my beloved~ It was so nice and i got to thumb up my finger! It was worth for me to climb up the hill..excellent~Here..i want to take this opportunity to thank my dear who has accompanied me along the long and hard journey, without you i am sure i cant be tough to challenge it..Thanks~muacks..I LOVE YOU~Dear
I truthly hope that our love story will last till forover. I swear i will stand beside you and pass through all the hardship with you, and hope you too~ May God bless us...