Tired and Stress~

Well..i am supposing to go working today but i didn't. What's wrong with me? Am i lazy? Or do i have any others reason? Haih..i am not sure with it also. Maybe i am lazy plus plus with i am not feeling well this morning oh!
Sometimes i feel myself very irresponsible because keep taking leave recently. But what to do? I feel so tired and stress, and i need some rest to cool down my mind set. One of my colleague is going to resign soon on august, and she hopes me to learn everything within this the period but seriously i am new in this field and i need time to digest also. Don't even think i am superwomen since i know i am not. What can i do? When she keep pushing me up, i feel like hard for me to breath. Stress...please run away from me...please~
Next..i hope i can shout loudly..i want to tell her i am not a fast learner, can you please explain more if you want me to do something for you?? You just pass the thing you do until half, and how should i know what can i do the next? You always ask my to try it and ask you if i am not understand,but do you really teach me or lend your hands to help me if i am asking you? Nope..you will just say "i am busying la, can you look out by yourself?"...!! Sorry..i want to tell you i can't..!
Why should i do all this in fact i am also a temporary worker? Why shouldn't you train up the other worker? I don't understand. i keep pushing myself to satisfy you guys and how many are you can satisfy me and understand my feeling? I am tired~
I need to repeat and repeat telling myself don't be to picky sometimes, but i feel that i can't do that. The jobs i am handling now is much much more than the others but my wages maybe is lower than them..!! It is the welfare i am supposing to get? Haih..i start feeling blur~

Lets forget all the bad thing and change another topic to share la.

Haha..my dear is coming back soon on 5th of august. Hooray..happy to hear that because i am damn missing him. I have been separated with him for few months already, don't know how much has he been changed le? Anyways..i will wait for the moments, i wan to go back to my happy and sweet sweet life..hehe! I want to create more sweet memories with him..!!
And now i hope to wish him have a early Happy Birthday! My boyfriend's birthday is on 21th July and this will be the first year we can't celebrate together. But never mind la, i believe your friends will celebrate with you and you can still enjoy your birthday like last year. Dear~ you are going to be 22 year old boy lo..must guai guai and love me more ya..hehe~Happy birthday to you and may all your dreams come true..i will bless you always..i love you~muacks!

Good Luck~My Friends

I believed all my friends that got offer from ipta are going to off today or maybe have been off the day before today. Anyways..hope everyone good luck and all the best in your wonderful future..hehe! Hope ours friendship will last forever..keep in touch ya!

And i am here still waiting for the news from appealing. How's a nervous feel am i having now?? I cant really describe from words..but i am praying, blessing myself..!! Truthly hope everything can go smoothly! I am well-prepared to start off my new uni life..So, please do give me luck..please..

Seriously..touch wood to say that if i fail to get the offer again, i will be very sad, but i do have another plan. Just maybe the plan is hard to achieve or i need more time to achieve. Haih..don't care about what, i will just pray, i want to study..desperate to study!

I hesitate to work, i hate working..!! What's the life i am having now?? Working working working without even a day for me to rest..tired~Isn't it money is so so so important for life?? Maybe i should say yes, because money can mostly let you get what you want except love from of parents..sibling..boyfriend or friends!

I am glad because i got the deep love from my family..my dear and also my friends but i am yet still feeling vague for my future. I hope to study but don't have money..so what to do?? I always heard some of my friend said that " as a child, our responsibility is to study hard for yourself and also for your parents ; and as a parents, their responsibility is to be rearer, raise up their children" ! No..i am not agree with this word because not every children are as lucky as you because we borned from different status's family. Yes..you just have to study hard without facing any financial problem but i believe this will make you more unindependently.
We must be independent all the times..do you agree??

Because of my home financial problem having recently..i feel that i am growing up. I can understand how hard do every parents earn money..it is not easy to be a parents! Dad..mom..i promise, i swear i will work hard..i will try my best to earn as much money as i can for my tuition fee, i won't be your burden, okay? I love you~muacks...



To my dear:
Yang...i know recently you are busying with your exam and i feel guilty to disturb you also. But i will bless you and support you all the time, okay? Gambateh ya..always be confident to yourself..believe youself can always do the best ya..i love you~Thanks for your care and concern all the times, i will think positively and do my best also..don't worry la! Take care..muacks!