Confused~

I just attended a birthday party at Weng Harng's house. What so weird is this is actually not harng's birthday but is his brother's birthday, and i got invited too! Haha..dun care la, just treat it as a gathering la since i have been long time didn't meet with all my buddies already. But it was fun and thanks for harng's serve ya..^^

We chatted a lot there and so do the future plan. Haih..seem that everyone has cleared with their plan but how about me? I am not sure, i got a plan but don't know whether will it be the way i will follow at last. Damn it..i am fully regret actually because i didn't study well during the whole form 5 year, so form 6 for me is quite tough since my basic is so weak. But what to do?? I have no other choices, once time passed already, you will never get it back. So i promised and i swear, i must do my best start from now!

Once you got a bad result and you are poor, this will be a problem for you to further study. It is truth and i am facing this problem right now. I know i must continue with my study since my study mood still very strong with me. But i do sure that the percentage for me to enter local university without spending money is low. Second, let say if i choose to study private, i afraid that i need to retake a foundation course. I wish i wont go back to foundation life, i want to continue with my degree course!!

So..what i must do now is working hard and earn money to study. I am not sure when i will resign the job, maybe on June, September or December. I can't make any desicion now since i still have to wait for the goverment letter. But i will look for a day to go to the Utar and ask in details about the course, fee and also the enroll date. If they accept me to go straight for the degree course, i think i will enroll on January of 2011 and hopefully i can get it. This is the plan which i can study straight to degree course and earn money along this 7 months from now until end of the year. One more thing i am sure is i can't apply the loan for my degree course. So the money i earn now will be using on the first semester of course and i will work harder to get loan on the second semester and onward. ~JiaYi Gambateh~

Recently i am trying to improve my general knowledge. I want to step near to this world. Sometimes i really don't understand why am i improving from now?? It should be started early right? Haih..i have already wasted a lot of time, i hope i can chase back the time i have lost. If i got another chances again, i sure will do my best, won't let myself regret anymore. But for now, i know i cant, so i should be optimist! As i realized where did i do wrong, i must re-correct it!

God~i know i am wrong, i wish i could get another chances from you. I swear...i will do the best!!
Hope i can get what i desired~

My Recent Life~

I had been long time dint update my blog already and the reason will always be busying.
Recently i am busying with my work.
I got a work last month and probably with work until end of may if i am not mistaken.
God..i truthly hope i can go back to my study life..I love studying!!
I am currently working as a admin clerk actually but i don't know why do i need to do all supervisor's stuff..confused~
But anyway, i think i have already adapted in such a situation where i need to sun under the hot sun hot everyday.
I tell myself, just treat it as a experience and must pass through all this challenging.
I am actually quite believe a quote * God promise us a better life, but He doesn't say it gonna be easy *..!!
Time by time, i know i can be a mature and positive thinker.
No one can look down at me, i will let you guys know 'JiaYi always Boleh'..!
For now, i always keep my faith for everything...I must do the best! I don't want to make myself regret at future!

But how is my home life?
What i can say is i am getting along with happiness.
Don't you guys feel it..once you gone out work already, you can really get the meaning of home.
* Home Sweet Home *..home is the best place for me to rest, i can feel the caring from everyone at home and i love this feeling.
Since the day i start working, i can communicate well with my parents and i don't quarrel with them anymore..muacks..happy^^

How is my love journey?
I believe that love do not come easily, so once it has already come, we must appreciate the moment always.
I know love journey sometimes will face with hitch, but if you love them, you won't let them go easily.
Just as me..i love my dear and i am sure he loves me too.
I trust him always that already enough, don't try to think of others.
Love is a simple feeling with you can't really describe it..it is abstract but sweet.
I am going to China soon at 15th of October..!
I am so so so excited which cant describe from words..
I hope to see my dear soon and i miss him always!
Truthly hope we will have our wonderful and sweet moment there~ I love you!